Tagged: pain

Love Loan | Returning the Favor

If I borrow you my love
will you return it
battered and bruised
tormented and used
or will you cherish it?

drawing of meLoving me like
we’ve been
for ages
when it’s really only been moments
in each others thoughts

If I allow you to let me come in and sit for a while
just enough to make you smile
will you let me leave

or will this
innocent effort of kindness
passion and mindlessness
be too much to let go
once you know

I know of the pain you speak
and I too feel the void you wish to seek
though I’ve not yet found it myself
the hope of it haunts me

my realities have become fairy tails
and my daydreams my reality
I create heroes and halos from recycled matter
than have no home

this gives me solace
when I can’t find my way
helping others throughout their day
allows me purpose in a world of my own
where even the youngest appears full grown

a pleasant Distraction
yearning for satisfaction
not my own
I feed myself
by fulfilling your hunger

If I borrow you my love
will you return it
feeling that you owe me
with interest?
You’ve already paid

It’s actually me that’s returning the favor

© DaraMonifah

SMILE while CRY…

SMILE while CRYING
In the midst of the thunder, the lightning, the brimstone and the fire… I choose to pause, breathe and appreciate the rainbow within. Rain drops are after all, a blessing… and the shock of burning urges us to wake up, remain present, grow and heal.

Taking a moment to pause everything around me… all my unfulfilled responsibilities, all my insecurities, the weaknesses that continue to surface and smile in my face… and the painful memories that all seem to return as a gang of tormentors… I smile.

I sit still and smile, because I can. In all that has happened and all that I have experienced. I still stand and laugh and love freely and deeper than before… afraid, yet faithful that it matters more to just be than to be (too) careful.

I CHOOSE LIFE.

in the midst of what may perceptively FEEL like a thousand deaths repeated and coming to crescendo,

I CHOOSE LIFE!

in the midst of knowing the errors in my ways and the flaws in my intentions

i choose life.

inner freedom is worth bearing the invisible shackles of public ‘impression of degradation’

they will see what they want to see whether or not we look at it ourselves…

be true to the greatest good of you and your light will be revived

SMILE radiantly because you are…

just because you are.

heART songs sin…

heART songs sing my soul to sleep as their vibrations heal me awake.

No language can express abundance better than the heART can feel and share it…. but the closest thing I’ve felt to it, I feel from the chords of my acoustic guitar, the keys of my grande piano and the release of my INner voice when it is allowed to project freely.

Why stifle self healing? Why shelter self from being loved? Why not just smile, love and be loved. Could you be loved? Then be loved.

I remember the feeling I’d get from doing simple pencil and charcoal sketches or black and white photography. I could get lost in just the moment of doing and not worry so much about the end result. The same with my writing… poems inked on random napkins, Styrofoam containers, leaves or whatever else shared itself to my moments.

Knowing how easy it is to love and how much I love to love pains me sometimes when I realize I’ve stopped breathing, stopped drinking, stopped eating, stopped singing, stopped drawing, stopped running and jumping… stopped living. or just paused.

I know it was by choice. I know it was for protection. I know it was out of pain, shame, fear, feelings of failure and self neglect. I know. I accept. I allow it to be so…

I know I am love. I know I am a healer and that I must start over and continue at the same time, by healing myself.

I know I am ready… have been and will continue to be. I am that.

 

i am

HEALED.

bring on the colors and the notes

bring out the tears and the sweat

having kept them in so long I look forward to what they will share

with me as their first audience

in the middle of the all

heART songs sing my soul to sleep as their vibrations heal me awake.

as I look left. I know now the time to right.

heART songs sing my soul to sleep as their vibrations heal me awake.

Good Mourning

SunShine. Moonlight. Pillow clouds. Purifying rain. Healing flame. detoxifying grain. Page turning breeze… tantalizing tremors accepted as quelling quakes used to shake me open

eye lids unlocked

voice freed

Time 2 reKreate DaraMonifah.thePoetArtistMusician ME.

Pain = Prelude to Pleasure …INjoi it all to the fullest

What is pain but our
Prelude to coming pleasures
…Living Love Embraced

©DaraMonifah.thePoetArtistMusician ME.

Looking back at the calendar year of 2012, I momentarily relived, the pains, joys, struggles and successes that have helped to build me into who I am now…. a stronger, wiser, more beautiful and more faithfully open me. I look forward to what my journey will bring during this calendar year and beyond.